as of today

tonight i'm gonna whine.

2 reports pending. secretary for meeting tomorrow. house on construction-no electricity and water yet. current rent house-stuff still not packed. grasses in the lawn seems to be taller by inches a day. back lawn looks like avatar's shooting area (extra size banana tree anyone?). i saw spider much like tarantula last 2-3 days in the house. still not bought the stove, fridge, washing machine etc yet.

wedding card still not completed. my ring not finished. my suit not finished. just got glass bowl for the door gift. kuantan-banting-muar-banting-kluang-nilai-banting in 4 days. hm...what else ya...

marking for student papers still not finished. extra one report for yesterday visit. data migration for 7 estates not completed. Mplan coming. trial still not kicked off. furniture for the house. photographer during the wedding.

sometime i feel exhausted. but i kinda like it. have something to do and not doing it is much better feeling than have nothing to do. just like how u slept in the dorm when there's class during college years is more satisfying then when u actually have no class.

but...if ever u feel stuck with the stuff, before u start blaming everything under the sun, take a step back and see what's going on. shit happens only if u allow it. all the issue roots from yourself.

freedom to think

I've just checking some of the political blogs that i frequented; chedet, rockybru, helen ang, jebat must die, outsyed the box...to name a few. they're somehow more leaned to BN. lot of issues i read...the best part is checking on the comments posted by their dear readers.

for chedet, which is Tun Dr. Mahathir's blog, you can see that we Malaysians are so full of intellectual (pun intended). haha. quite a heaty discussion there among the regulars...and i can't help but to feel that they somehow want to show how knowledgeable they are with the facts, figures, suggestions, debate etc...i wonder if Tun ever read the comments. anyway Tun's pieces is thought provoking and simple enough to deliver his message.

another highlight is at helen ang's blog. i quite enjoyed reading her material considering the simple writing style and interesting takes on issues highlighted. recently she seems to be bashing DAP quite frequently...giving me some food for thoughts. and on his comments, it's interesting that whenever she wrote something quite unfavorable about DAP, some nasty and abusive comments surely will come out.

i don't know if this is how they run politics nowadays. not that i'm old, but i always believe the adage that how you act; the way  you talk, your words, your writing etc shows what you're inside. and seeing the comments...make me sick to think that this is our voters. harsh words, abusive remarks are aplenty. more interesting comments are in Malaysia Kini...gone are the days of sopan santun and wisdom in words. foul words instead are in abundance.

some comments are far from being constructive. some are downward humiliating. i don't know what kind of sick people who wrote those stuff. i don't even have a heart to read...and these are our fellow Malaysian. at least if you want to take a man down and put your idolised leader up, might as well do it in style.

L.a.z.i.n.e.

15th March 2012.1455.At the office.
I'm too lazy to finish the title.


Why do today what you can do tomorrow?

Tomorrow is where all your spirits are, where all your dreams reigned, where you will become a better man, eat more veggies, stop smoking and stop taking sugar, stop surfing the net during office hour...start saving your money, where all your motivation stored...and as of today just enjoy your sweet time cause you know you'll be a changed men tomorrow.

Except that when you wake up tomorrow's morning it's today again...ha.

"U mad, bro?"

Work is a friend

Apparently today I got a hell of work to do...to clear up my back logs fom way back when. My department is undergoing restructure, just after a year of 'new structure'. Weird. New people come in, new way of thinking. I don't even know what's right anymore.

Anyway, since that my mind is quite preoccupied with work all day long, I would like to share with you my dear readers, a short poem written by none others, the esteemed, Mr. John D. Rockerfeller...-enjoy-

"....I was early taught to work as well as play,
My life has been one long, happy holiday;

Full of work and full of play-

I dropped the worry on the way-

And God was good to me everyday."

                                                J.D.Rockerfeller



emosi

Saban hari aku merenung diri dan sekeliling. Persekitaranku tak banyak berubah, tak seiring dengan beralihnya waktu. Ruangku beku, kaku, membatu. Aku tersekat di tempat ku berdiri. Masa depan dan masa lalu terhenti seketika disaat ini, mengkirakan kemana arah tujuan seterusnya.

Aku bosan sebenarnya. Bosan dan malas. Adakah itu sesuatu yang buruk. Aku tak ingin lagi cuba merubah diriku menjadi rajin, mengikut pandangan majoriti. Perubahannya tak akan kekal. Ahh! Bosan. Bosan. Bosan. Jalan hidup yang mendatar membuatku mengantuk. Kukira ku boleh tidur dari Jumaat ke Ahad.

Aku bukanlah seorang adventur tapi entah kenapa aku rasa resah. Ada sesuatu yang meragut passion ku. Terasa berat kaki ini untuk melangkah seolah diikat bebola besi. Kedengaran seperti omongan kosong. Biarlah, aku juga perlukan ruang ekspresi.

Sistem meragut impianku. Fikiranku dibatasi normaliti. Kehendak duniawai mengatasi keperluan rohani. Free choice is an illusion. More and more we are succumbing to the system. Semakin hari kita semakin sama. Pilihanku dibentuk kehendak sekeliling. Tindakanku diatur keadaan semasa. Fikiranku mengikut media massa. Aku...hanyalah interpretasi kepada normaliti ruang dan masa sekarang.

Aku yang hakiki hanya wujud didalam mimpi. Mungkin sebab itu aku suka tidur.

d.r.i.v.e

i drove with the window down
feels the wind brushing on my face
my hand holding a cig'
i just don't give a damn

it's just the feeling u love the most
when you are traveling from A to B
anything in between just don't matter
a moment cut out from your life

you had a chat inside your mind
seeing your life from outside the line
your dreams stretched with the road in front
that takes you where ever you want

it comes to an abrupt end
when u finally reach your destination
later, my friend
as u turn the key and stop the ignition.