L.a.z.i.n.e.

15th March 2012.1455.At the office.
I'm too lazy to finish the title.


Why do today what you can do tomorrow?

Tomorrow is where all your spirits are, where all your dreams reigned, where you will become a better man, eat more veggies, stop smoking and stop taking sugar, stop surfing the net during office hour...start saving your money, where all your motivation stored...and as of today just enjoy your sweet time cause you know you'll be a changed men tomorrow.

Except that when you wake up tomorrow's morning it's today again...ha.

"U mad, bro?"

Work is a friend

Apparently today I got a hell of work to do...to clear up my back logs fom way back when. My department is undergoing restructure, just after a year of 'new structure'. Weird. New people come in, new way of thinking. I don't even know what's right anymore.

Anyway, since that my mind is quite preoccupied with work all day long, I would like to share with you my dear readers, a short poem written by none others, the esteemed, Mr. John D. Rockerfeller...-enjoy-

"....I was early taught to work as well as play,
My life has been one long, happy holiday;

Full of work and full of play-

I dropped the worry on the way-

And God was good to me everyday."

                                                J.D.Rockerfeller



emosi

Saban hari aku merenung diri dan sekeliling. Persekitaranku tak banyak berubah, tak seiring dengan beralihnya waktu. Ruangku beku, kaku, membatu. Aku tersekat di tempat ku berdiri. Masa depan dan masa lalu terhenti seketika disaat ini, mengkirakan kemana arah tujuan seterusnya.

Aku bosan sebenarnya. Bosan dan malas. Adakah itu sesuatu yang buruk. Aku tak ingin lagi cuba merubah diriku menjadi rajin, mengikut pandangan majoriti. Perubahannya tak akan kekal. Ahh! Bosan. Bosan. Bosan. Jalan hidup yang mendatar membuatku mengantuk. Kukira ku boleh tidur dari Jumaat ke Ahad.

Aku bukanlah seorang adventur tapi entah kenapa aku rasa resah. Ada sesuatu yang meragut passion ku. Terasa berat kaki ini untuk melangkah seolah diikat bebola besi. Kedengaran seperti omongan kosong. Biarlah, aku juga perlukan ruang ekspresi.

Sistem meragut impianku. Fikiranku dibatasi normaliti. Kehendak duniawai mengatasi keperluan rohani. Free choice is an illusion. More and more we are succumbing to the system. Semakin hari kita semakin sama. Pilihanku dibentuk kehendak sekeliling. Tindakanku diatur keadaan semasa. Fikiranku mengikut media massa. Aku...hanyalah interpretasi kepada normaliti ruang dan masa sekarang.

Aku yang hakiki hanya wujud didalam mimpi. Mungkin sebab itu aku suka tidur.

d.r.i.v.e

i drove with the window down
feels the wind brushing on my face
my hand holding a cig'
i just don't give a damn

it's just the feeling u love the most
when you are traveling from A to B
anything in between just don't matter
a moment cut out from your life

you had a chat inside your mind
seeing your life from outside the line
your dreams stretched with the road in front
that takes you where ever you want

it comes to an abrupt end
when u finally reach your destination
later, my friend
as u turn the key and stop the ignition.

Malaysian Po(pular)litics

Politic is all about popularity, and to quote words from someone I dear; "it's all about winning people's heart".

I'm not a politician, and not planning to be. But I do occasionally observe and follow our current political scenario and for me, rather than winning people's heart, our scene is more likely championing people's hatred and resentment; with party's using negative and sometime sensitive issue to achieve their political agenda. They're not interested to serve the people, instead they use them to gain power. Do you think they really care about the grassroot's well-being? Unless it gave them profit, sorry, but I have my doubt.

Ok-lah, lets tone down a bit. Basically our political circus consist of 2 'troupe', the BN coalition (ruling) and Opposition (PAS, DAP, KeADILan, etc.). I'm not describing PKR-Pakatan Rakyat as the whole opposition as BN for the ruling cos for me, they are what I'll call 'conditional coalition', coalition based on current situation, needs, and advantages. Within themselves they still haven't sorted out their beef. 

Too many leaders are in the party, and still they don't have the mutual understanding. If say they succeeded in taking over the parliament, who you think will be the PM? 

Might be Dato' Seri Anwar, but are DAP and PAS just gonna sit and watch...more interesting if they hold more seats..and if PAS hold the power, is DAP going to agree with the 'Negara Islam' policies by PAS...and are we ready to be liberalized like our neighbor Singapore if DAP hold the power.

Not to say that I'm a hardcore BN supporter...they do have their weaknesses and they're not perfect. Nothing is perfect. Even gold is only 99.999 purity. It's how we tolerate the imperfection. 

For me, as a general citizen living under BN government the whole of my life...they are the only one balanced coalition I can think of. They might swayed sometimes, but still moving within the same path.

Corruption, scandals, do you bet that if the Opposition hold the power there will be no more of these things? It's still there, just the culprits will be different. Checking on the track records, I'll rather have known enemies than backstabbing friends.

30 minutes too long

Today i got NBTD (nothing better to do). Ouch, that acronym remind me of a Counter-Strike group that I heard was good back then (back then is a long time ago). Hm...I'm lazy today.Not that before this I'm not, just that today i got nothing much going on. Just completed my report yesterday after a month of the visit...that is going to hurt my KPI haha. So today I just pretending being busy while in fact I just doing no work related job, really.

my work station...sometime used for day dreaming

Ahh...the day almost over...want to go home!!

shadow

shadow is our past
silently be with us
try to run from it
is trying to run from yourself

u might hate it
and try to keep the light away
leaving yourself in darkness

it can't harm u
yet it can haunt u

embrace it
coz nobody can move on
by following their shadows.