The gift of life

I never know it will be on this day when i woke up this morning. Nor do I know it when i drove to work, or attending the Friday prayer. Not a hunch, neither do it ever cross my mind.

But it happens when it happens...

Those two lines...though static, is...something. It tells you something. It tells you of things to come.  Who you will become. In instance it divide your life into two...prior and after you've seen it.

I know I've to change. Things won't be the same and I shouldn't be. 

To my dear wife, thank you..for everything and we'll go through this journey together, hand in hand and step by step.

Am I happy? Or suprised? I don't know now...I'm just grateful to be given this gift of life. Alhamdulillah and may everything is blessed...

suicide direction part I

He seats in his cubicle, staring at the computer screen. His gaze far reaching into the oblivion and beyond. The screen displayed the half finished report. His hand on the keyboard is writing gibberish. Somewhere in his mind, he got lost. Or stuck. Possibly both.

"This train of thought is going nowhere," he said to himself. Little did he know that he is no longer the master of his thoughts, and the 'train' now is taking him everywhere. He is going for a joy ride. Or sorrow ride. Possibly both.

The matter is, you are what you are made of inside. Inside, he is hollow. Now he is nothing more than part of the system. Or slave. Possibly both.

His soul lies somewhere in the passage of time. Back during the day when he was happily spending time in the cyber cafe, shooting off terrorist. Or counter terrorist. Possiby both.

No regret. No problem. But he was satisfied. Or contented. Possibly both.

He is tired. He just want to sleep. Or die. Possibly both.

On the positive note, maybe he just wish that his old self dead. Because nobody want to die, right?Or living his life soulless. Definitely, both.

*it's 530 already, so good to be going home to the one dear to you ;)

48 odd hours into 2013

I'm at kulai town today for works. two nursery visits; one for the audit and the other one for culling. i traveled yesterday from carey island about noon, arrived at kulaijaya exit about 330 pm and then got lost a bit in the small town of kulai to find kulai (obviously) estate.

during the search, i drove all the way to ioi mall (the other ioi mall) and into some sort of upmarket residential area. guess in kulai the real estate is not that bad though. saw this one ads for terraced house 18x70 selling for 182K. not bad.

finally reached estate nearing 430 but the sky is already dark. in fact it's raining cats and dogs by the time i left. the nursery is in kelan division which is quite interior with a small road leading to the AP post. the road is quite bad; in fact i checked with the assistant to be certain on the road.

My drove down here is so so. I drove a little bit worn out hilux...basically due to heavy usage but insufficient care. but anyway it served its purpose.

i stayed in this d'sayang hotel...not the most luxurious but this is kulai...the room a bit like banting's garden hotel. its new, the mattress still firm though. the rate is 88-special offer. and its beside tesco.

got a ktv at the top floor...the sound could be heard in my room till late. hotel guest got a 30% discount voucher. too bad i'm not in the mood for some vocal workout.

tomorrow morning i'll leave for seri pulai estate for the final culling...about < 10k seedlings to be assessed. -yawn-. anyway i'll jump into other car tomorrow, a ford ranger. the job won't be too long i supposed; should be back by noon.

so that's it..travelling on the first day of 2013. sure'll be many more to come for this year.